drawing the line
a lesson to be learned (thanks ale for reminding me.. her blog documents her pursuits in the design world and that kind of professionalism, at least for my blog, is pretty much hopeless at this point) ...
there's a new situation for me and a majority of my friends that maybe i wasn't clued in on... and maybe my friends know this more than i do, or maybe i'm just overly trusting and open with everyone i know.
professionalism. and behavior/composure in the office setting.
what does that even mean? why can't i talk about regular things with my "friends" at work? why should i keep it to topics like the weather or the upcoming office volleyball game. my instinct is to skip those topics completely for the sake of sincerity. wouldn't you rather hear about my laundry schedule? the number of new leaves on my plant at home? more seriously...
i have no idea what im doing... when will the identity crisis end?? i've found myself buying things to make up for it. i.e. shopping for clothes that i want to wear to work... maybe that is why people tend to be so materialistic, it's just a constant search for identity. hide me.
so the goal for myself this week is to not buy anything. mostly i'm broke, but i also have just been completely irresponsible with my new income. i'm even bringing lunch to work tomorrow, this is huge. let's see how i do. (am i even allowed to strike up conversation about my new goal for this week?)
there's a new situation for me and a majority of my friends that maybe i wasn't clued in on... and maybe my friends know this more than i do, or maybe i'm just overly trusting and open with everyone i know.
professionalism. and behavior/composure in the office setting.
what does that even mean? why can't i talk about regular things with my "friends" at work? why should i keep it to topics like the weather or the upcoming office volleyball game. my instinct is to skip those topics completely for the sake of sincerity. wouldn't you rather hear about my laundry schedule? the number of new leaves on my plant at home? more seriously...
i have no idea what im doing... when will the identity crisis end?? i've found myself buying things to make up for it. i.e. shopping for clothes that i want to wear to work... maybe that is why people tend to be so materialistic, it's just a constant search for identity. hide me.
so the goal for myself this week is to not buy anything. mostly i'm broke, but i also have just been completely irresponsible with my new income. i'm even bringing lunch to work tomorrow, this is huge. let's see how i do. (am i even allowed to strike up conversation about my new goal for this week?)
posted by cristina at 10:50 PM
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Does your plant have a new leaf????!!
I just burned the Mirah, by the way, it worked once I made it off the stolen wifi and ancient laptop on my bed...
AND more importantly, I think perhaps a purchase that would be good soon (if not happened already) could be pots and pans...maybe a knife?? Keep me updated on your cooking. We (a royal "we," or at least larger than the two of us) should keep an exchange of sorts going as we venture into this "professional" world where we cook for ourselves on a regular basis. Cristina and her virgin kitchen.
and what does professional mean in another country? It seems that anything I say or do becomes public property, which makes me want to hide what I say or do, then again, how people like me personally seems more important than the work I do
also- no real supervisors or people giving me feedback- what am I going to do when I saunter in casually to an American work environment and find that I'm screwed!!! : ) enjoyed the post and identity crisis feeling the same
You're not very good at updating.
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